My Story;

I'm going under a new LJ alias, http://severiclepore.livejournal.com/ , as I did with everything else in the past week. I honestly hope that the transition will be swift and won't be any major inconvenience for anyone, because it really shouldn't. I'll be readding everyone myself once I jump over to the new account, and that should be it. I'll get to deleting this account sometime later, but this should be the last post made.

Spring break is being rather tasteless. It started on a fantastic note, but then just crumbled in a landslide. I spent half of yesterday tending the lawn, and the other half driving to Philly to go to some half ass Mexican restaurant. The chili was… sweet. Oh, and the waitress was being a bitch, so that had me in a bad mood most of the time. Getting up to leave I hit my head on a metal cage, housing the thermostat. But there were pictures of creepy people everywhere, so that gave me a smile.

Afterwards we drove an hour back home, and it was very smoky. At first I thought it was controlled burning, but it seemed like an awful lot. Then I get home, fail at writing, and go to sleep. Hopefully today will be a little better…

Here ya' go...

Things are looking up for me…

When I’m feeling good, my depression goes away.  If I fall asleep undepressed, I wake up early… So today everything must be going great.

 

I have nothing to look forward to but spring break, which should provide some mental relaxation. I think my father is heading up to Manhattan sometime next week, I should go with him.

 

Well, that’s about it… I’ll write more later…

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1. I'm drinking dark chocolate coffee, and eating some italian sausage.

2. I never actually tried for anything... it just happened.

3. I've been playing the trumpet for 5 years =D

4. I used to play the violin, but I quit when I was like... 8.

5. I've never been off the east coast, or anywhere that wasn't between Orlando and Staten Island.

6. I have OCD.

7. I like the beach, but I love the city more. ^_^

8. Despite almost every other male member of my family, I want nothing to do with the army.

9. My family has been in America since the early 18th centuary.

10. Still haven't finished that coffee.

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I’m sooo sorry Live Journal, I know I’ve been neglecting you.

My life is really wavy, and sometimes shaky… Like an old wooden rollercoaster. At least the Summer can give me some contemplating time… and I know that has been lacking. I think that it is fine to set aside some moments to think, if not healthy. But I’m not being really spacey or anything, am I? Oh, don’t look at me like that.

I don’t know… I feel like something should be done… but WHAT?! Do I need a new hobby or something? I’m really fine with my current hobbies… Possibly I need to embrace them a little more. I just wish I could do something for my damn attention problems. My mother says that she doesn’t think they are serious enough… if only she knew. The only real way that I could persuade my parents to get me help would be if this affected my school work, which it isn’t. Though, I can’t help but feel that it is masking my true potential, which has yet to be shown. I don’t know. All I can do it take these classes and give them hell, because I really want a decent future.

In other news, the forecast is… rain. I usually like rain, but this is the humid kind… And NO ONE likes that. Well, what do I know? If you like humid, sweaty weather, please tell me. I’m always willing to trade places ^_^

I got up early with the intention to write something down here, but it took me all this time to realize that I have not much to say…

In fact, a lot happened… But it is all things so small that they are unworthy of writing little anecdotes over, so I’ll just list them. >:3

-Maintained 100 average in health.

-Completely failed at quadratic equation.

-Taught a freshman how to substitute equations.

-Helped some people going through emotional issues.

-Lost my purple pants D=

-Took a test on a book I never read.

-Got even with my brother and his April Fools stuff...

-Found it ironic that the same day I have 2 hour band after school is the day that I am given the most homework in months.

-Is finding it pointless to write any more.

Sorry about the lack of post… I was pretty preoccupied all this week, so I guess I’ll make it up to everyone…

 

Friday: My Mom, brother, and I drove down to Virginia. Not much happened on the trip, or at least not much that I know of… I was sleeping most of the time.  When I got there we hung out for the rest of the day and explored the woods some. It was alright, but there are like, 10 kids down there, so it can all get a little hectic…

Saturday: First thing in the morning I sprained my ankle >_<. It was bad enough to keep me from walking, so I just laid around for most of the day. Played some Rock Band, watched some movies… slept more.

Sunday: I still couldn’t walk much, but later in the day I convinced myself that I could go on a little hike through the woods. To this moment I ask myself, how can two people make a five mile mistake? We lost our position at sundown and (thankfully) ended up in some mile wide field… Now, if you end up in such a place and you DON’T know where you are… that usually isn’t too good. We all got home around 8, but it was nice to see the nighttime world waking up =)

Monday: I tried to skate again, still couldn’t. We left to Joyzee around 1, and this trip was pretty boring too. I still slept the whole thing out, got home, and did some work.

Tuesday: Nothing much happened today, honestly. I had band after school and it seemed to go fine.

Wednesday: Nothing really happened here either. I had some state test training thing that I HAD to attend… pretty boring.

Thursday: I had a bunch of tests that day, all which I feel confident about. I tried to walk the dog down the wooden paths after school… but who the hell knew that they would be working on SEWAGE WORK! In the woods of all places… Oh well… I also tried to skate again, but I think it would be best to wait ‘till Saturday.

There you go, a quick recap on my rather eventless week…

 

Oh, and on Thursday my father almost shut down JFK Airport, but he made a deal to save some people their jobs.

 

I'll be gone visiting family 'till Monday or so, I'll write about it when I get back. Everyone else have a wonderful weekend. ^_^

Well, this weekend was memorable, in my book… I suppose it was filled with amusement, friendship, and insomnia. Though, looking back I wouldn’t want it any other way.

     First off, my brother brought home Rock Band. It is a pretty decent game, to my standards. The guitar is kinda’ cool with the duel sets of buttons. The drums are… interesting, to say the least (ok, I’m pretty much terrible at them). And singing is mildly entertaining, especially where YOU’RE not the one up there. All together I give it a 6.4.

     I got around to the movies this weekend. Two friends and I decided to see 10,000BC… which was better than Jumper, in my opinion… Though we laughed at some apparently serious parts, so I suppose it makes a decent comedy as well. Meh, it wasn’t something worth dedicating two hours and seven dollars to….

      And the highlight of my weekend was getting to spend it with my dearest friends. You people are awesome. ^__^

 

Huh, I still never got any skating done… Ah well, I’ll get around to that later.

I pulled an all-nighter for no specific reason… I’m not too tired, anyway.

I went on a trip today to GCU (which just so happens to be my mother’s old college) to attend some short lecture on forensic science… needless to say that I nearly fell asleep behind the professors monotone voice and boring slides. Way to turn something I’m interested in and crush it to bits, all in a few minutes… Anyway, it wasn’t all bad. I bought some chocolate and a little magnetic koala at the campus book store.

I’ve been talking to some girl in my gym class, these past few days. I barely even knew her beforehand, but I DO remember that her boyfriend nearly caused me to fail pre algebra… Whatever. Anyway, she knows that I’m bi (which is much easier to explain than pansexuality), and I’m getting the feeling that word is going to spread pretty fast. It doesn’t matter much; as long as some people aren’t ready to throw it in my face (though I’m sure some are…) It all doesn’t affect me too much, right now.

On a bit of the lighter side, I start health Monday (and I absolutely ADORE it), I received my new cell phone today, and I’m planning on buying an ipod sometime this weekend. The zune I’m using now is great and all… but it is nearly impossible to skateboard with. I have come to the conclusion that (as far as electronics go) smaller is indeed better.

It was my brother’s birthday. I gave him a wedding card and $5… not much, but I’ve lend him plenty of money over the year anyway. Also, I was able to convince my aunt to purchase the gift that he wanted… so he is happy about that. I like making people happy… though I always wish that money wasn’t the laziest approach to happiness…

Today’s debate went wonderfully. I got the largest applause from any other candidate… and, in my opinion, I was the least prepared. First, I moved them with a speech that I wrote literally a minute beforehand… Then I backed up most questions with statistics that I either memorized or made up… Regardless, they ate it all up. The real end to the republican candidate followed as soon as an issue on gay marriage was asked. As soon as she blamed her views on religion and personal opinion, the audience bombarded her with questions to the point that I felt somewhat sorry. But it was hilarious when my vice president asked her, “Well… since your stance on gay marriage is on religious bias, and you’re for separation of church and state… aren’t you contradicting yourself?”. Her response consisted of a few stutters and repeating some less than understandable sentence… That lost her most votes she could have gotten otherwise.

 

All in all, it was a decent day.

I got my SAT Reasoning Test results back, yesterday.

"How do you compare with other college-bound seniors?

Percentiles compare your scored to those of other students who took the test. The percentile for your critical reading score of 510 is 52, indicating that you scored higher than 52% of last year’s group of college-bound seniors. The percentile for your math score of 540 is 58, indicating you scored higher than 58% of last year’s group of college-bound seniors. The percentile for your writing score of 570 is 74, indicating that you scored higher than 74% of last year’s group of college-bound seniors.”

 

This makes me happy and all, especially coming from someone who hasn’t even set foot in high school yet…  But it doesn’t mean much now. I also found out that MATES turned down my application. Seems like I’ll be going to the public high school. Ah well, this should really make the competition more manageable, and who knows? My high school defiantly gives away more opportunities, and now I can take the joy of actually picking my classes. My father was upset that I’ve taken into consideration dropping band, next year… Though I don’t think I will be able to focus good enough, and it will just end up dragging my GPA down… I don’t want that.

 

Anyway, I’ve been running in some school election thing, for the moderate presidential position… I bet I’m the only candidate that has no idea what the damn election is for. I am under speculation that it could only count towards my grade, but you can never be too sure.

 

I still never got my damn phone back, but my aunt switched plans anyway, so I was able to buy  a new one. Personally, I think of it as an improvement to the old… But I’ll get back to that when I can actually get my paws on the thing.

~Ciao

Where should one banquet from now?

 

 

I will open this on a rather convivial notation, as I do not wish to deceive you into believing that my whole day fed me emotions; those conscripting me into type such pessimistic viewpoints on life and its entirety. I love to express myself through vivid terminology in the likes of emotion and thought, but in all truth I am not a constant ball of impasse. Please don’t complain to me, because I won’t listen. These words originate from my figurative heart, and live for no other reason than to satisfy my own meaningless compulsions. You could call it an issue, I call it prestige.

 

A person who I lend my heart towards is falling through some difficult thought. After reading the things written, I can’t help but feel generally apathetic. I know in the deepest respects that something should be felt…  An undeniable urge burning a hole through my soul is half convincing me to say that I could care, but honestly I don’t feel anything. Call me what you must, with the share in mind, knowing that I will value your opinions inconsiderably.  For reasons unclear, I desire to feel guilt for the absence of feeling… and it feels like nothing. I wish that human vocabulary was near perfected enough to describe the sense of expression that I so desperately want to cram into these words… Though, the truth is, they just don’t fit. It is like a puzzle, where the edges don’t match up completely, yet the piece still conjoins the final picture, with enough effort. Though, now, the puzzle appears to be misshapen, and wrongly patterned. Something is obviously wrong, and I am clearly lying. Well, the lying stops here.

 

I am sick of my friends jumping to me with their problems. Whether it be relationship issues, or a homicidal rage… I honestly can’t help you with your constant mania. Sure, my words can sooth the burn, but that won’t stop your skin from turning white and blistering over. So, please, take my advice and learn to take it with little acknowledgement. Listen to me; don’t listen to me. Either way, I’m walking off with a clear conscious. The caring person who once occupied this soul has run out of care. I’m tired of playing the emotional sponge, who willingly soaks up your problems as you dump them on me. And if you feel like you’re the one I’m writing this about, keep in mind that I speak to the totality.

 

If you have an issue and you need advice that is one thing… Though don’t come to me for the sake of argument, because I am not moved anymore. If I’m not right, then you were far worse off to come to me in the first place. In shorter terms, if you don’t want my opinion, then don’t ask for it. Next time someone crawls to me with the sole intention of dumping their problems on me, without the least bit of their own attempt to set things right, I will give them the most fitting piece of encouragement. That is, to crawl up into a hole in the ground and die, because they simply lost any intellect that would qualify them as a life form worth coexisting with… And truth be told, you ARE in this alone. My words are simply a pillow for you to rest your head on as you concoct a real answer to your problems. Well, by all means, save us both some time and reconsider if or not your issues are as relevant to your complaints as you claim.

 

I love all my friends, and I would do anything in the world for them… But this doesn’t mean that I actually care for what you do. Honestly, if all you wish to do is complain to me about how bad your life is without making the least bit of an attempt to solve your own goddamn issues, then I ask you not to further waste my life.

 

Once again, this is not targeted to anyone in particular, it is just something that I need to make clear and let off my chest.

Gah, I hate my mind. You see… I have this strange thing about it, where I can’t focus on anything unless I’m tired. I suppose it is because, when I’m disoriented, my mind can only really afford to focus on so many things, and it is harder to get sidetracked. I don’t know. My mother said that she could look into someone to see if I have ADHD-PI, I think I do. All sorts of the disorder run in my family, so it is more than possible that I could have inherited something…

Anyway, I bought a new USB cord for my camera, so you'll be seeing plenty more pictures than before. I love taking pictures =]

JESUS Camp was pretty fun, though (as you can see) religion was exaggerated there. It is pretty hard to function in such a place as a nonChristian, it really is. Regardless, I was able to enjoy myself and take a few pictures. I suppose I’ll upload them whenever I get a new usb cord for my camera.

On a more upsetting note, I somehow lost my cell phone on the ride home. It is to my suspicion that it slipped out of my bag and onto the seat of the bus, or something. I was one of the last people off the thing, so I doubt anyone else noticed it. Also, the bus is owned by the church itself, so I suppose it hasn’t been used since.

Ah, I got my top hat. I arrived in the middle of dinner last Tuesday, and the NEXT dinner was interrupted by ANOTHER UPS shipment; four new pairs of pants. I love my pants… Everything fits all too well, and I adore this hat. And hell, for $20 why would I argue?! X3

 

Anyway, my trip was postponed until tomorrow MORNING, so I guess I won’t be talking much here until Sunday night or Monday anyway. If all goes well, we may get a good amount of show; enough to keep us in the mountains for a while. I love the mountains too ^_^

 

As I said, I should be back by Sunday night, but who can be too sure? Oh, and yes, there WILL be pictures…

Four days of much needed somnolence proved themselves propitious. I feel much better than I did last Tuesday, as far as fatigue goes… Mentally, this past week was one of the best I ever had. I’m not sure if this can amount to it, but we’ll just see.

     I was able to grab some breakfast this morning; breakfast never happens to me. Some would say that such an unusual occurrence could play as some foreshadowing to the day to come. Well, I’m just bold enough to see so for myself. My only complaint so early for the day is in regards to mi tarea español… If anyone finds it, can you please give it back; I need it. @_@

     Ah, anyway, this day is already looking up to me. If I pool out buckets of disappointment and depression tonight, you’ll know that something serious had to fuck up my mood. But, as long as my record stays clear today, everything should be fine. Just fine. =]